This week has been hard on me. I don’t really see the point of getting into it, especially since this is going to be my first post in almost a year, but a lot of it stems from me not doing the things that I want to do. One of those things, for a while now, has been to get back into writing for myself. I never write anymore, except for work and before that, for school. So, I want to start writing again. I was going to wait until 2020, but something told me to just do it now. On a random Thursday in December. The best kind of writing I can do right now is this, basically glorified journal entries. I always admire people who consistently blog and it’s something I want to put more effort into. I don’t know if I have anything to say that anyone would be interested in reading, but this isn’t about that. I want to do this.
So hello! If this is the first time reading one of my blog posts, great! This is a new beginning so it’s a good place to start. I’m Lauren, I’m 22, but will be 23 soon. Being a young adult in this day and age is pretty weird. My day to day life is pretty good, I have a job, I live in Atlanta, I have a pretty cool cat. But the world is kind of going crazy. The earth is heating up, our country is more divided than ever, the middle class is disappearing… you’ve heard this all before, and this isn’t a news website. But I majored in journalism so I’m not saying it’s not going to come up now and again. But, back to what I was saying, being a young adult in this day and age is kinda rough. I have anxiety, and so do a lot of people in my generation. I believe that it is so important to talk about it though and encourage other people to talk about it too. Each time someone speaks out it gets easier for the next person. It affects my every day life and makes being a human person just that much harder. It will probably be mentioned a lot in these posts, if I continue them…
It is, of course, at this point in the blog post that I start to second guess myself… I’m afraid to put myself out there, afraid to put what I think to paper. But, I’m going to try and push ahead. Once the first post is out there the rest will follow. I don’t want to hold back, within reason obviously, this isn’t actually going to be a diary, but I want to be honest.
I think it’s important to say this too, but I’m a Christian. I love Jesus a lot, and that’s a huge part of who I am as a person. I would say the most important thing about me as a person. I want to do my part to help other people come to know the Jesus I know too. I know a lot of people have been alienated by the church and I find that really heartbreaking. The church should be the place where any one and every one is welcome. And I mean that. You shouldn’t find judgement there, you should find love. But I know that’s often not the case. And for that, I apologize. I’m not going to try and impose my views on you here, but I am going to express them.
This isn’t very eloquent and I’m sure my grammar is abysmal. I think I simultaneously over-use and under-use commas. But the point remains, this is just me, taking the jump. Trying to express myself. Shouting into the void like every one else on the internet. I pray that I can be more consistent with it, but my track record isn’t great. I also hope that some people read it. Even just one. If you did, thank you.
tl;dr Hi, welcome (back) to my blog, let’s do this thing.