Top 5 Favorite Starbucks Orders

I’m sitting in Starbucks and I wanted to do a bit of a less formal more fun blog post because why not?

So here are my top five favorite Starbucks orders. (In no particular order.)

*Disclaimer I like black coffee, or just generally less-sweet coffee so keep in mind that you can always order these the normal way or even add cream, sugar, syrup, etc.


  1. Pike’s Place – I love a medium roast coffee. Sure the blonde roast has more caffeine and the dark roast changes on a regular basis, but I can always rely on good old Pike for that caffeine dose that I need.
  2. Americano – When I first started drinking coffee I was intimidated to order an Americano, I don’t know why it just seemed like on an elite level of coffee that I wasn’t qualified for or something, but Americanos are stinking amazing. (It’s literally just espresso and water, but so good.)
  3. Vanilla Soy Latte with one pump of vanilla – If I’m feeling especially sweet I’ll order this hot beverage. It’s literally so delicious, like drinking a liquid sugar cookie.
  4. Iced Coffee with soy milk and one pump of vanilla – Again back to my obsession with vanilla. I don’t get iced coffee a lot, I prefer hot black coffee, but one of my roommates turned me onto this delicious beverage and it was too good to not make it one of my new faves.
  5. Iced Coffee with light milk – for a less sugary iced beverage I turn to just plain old iced coffee and milk. I can sometimes drink it black, but I prefer at least a little bit of milk, this coffee beverage is perfect for a hot summer day.

So there you have it. Not super varied, I stick to what I like. And you can never go wrong with plain old black coffee. Let me know if you try any of these or what some of your faves are!

Being Kind

This semester has been a doozy and it isn’t even halfway over yet. I’ve learned a lot of lessons so far and I decided today to impart one of them onto my loyal blog readers (hi mom!)

Lesson One: Be Kind to Yourself.

Chances are you are your own worst critic. I know for sure that I am.

I am so quick to not give myself credit for anything.

For example, in my head, I had planned to write this blog post on Wednesday and publish it then. However, Wednesday turned out to be far busier than I expected and I didn’t have time. So, I was getting mad at myself for already messing up a brand new schedule and I thought, “well now there’s no sense in posting anything I’ll just wait until Friday.” And that thought could’ve stopped there. But then I thought, “no that’s dumb, be nice to yourself, it’s okay that you didn’t post anything, you can still write now.”

And that may seem like a frivolous example, but it’s just a small instance of something that I do all the time. I beat myself up over small mistakes and slip ups and then don’t allow myself room to recognize that I’m human, and most importantly that the schedule in my head is only in my head and it’s okay to deviate from it.

Everyone moves at their own pace. Just because you perceive yourself as further behind your peers doesn’t mean that you actually are. Or even if you are you’re moving at your pace, for you. There are people that move slower than that, and people that move faster. The point is to focus on your own personal growth and not constantly compare yourself to others. And believe me, I know how hard this is. I constantly look at my fellow students here at UF and go: “Wow they’re doing so much with their lives and I’m just sitting here.” But if you look at your own life, and the small goals you accomplish every day and delight in those, and give yourself credit for those you’ll feel much better.

Focus on the here and now. Don’t look five years into the future and be upset that you’re not there yet. Future You is very very proud of Past You. And you will get there. (Even if it takes making little baby steps every day.) But if you constantly get upset at not seeing progress now it will make it so much harder to get to that Future You(™) and you’ll spend so much time as Present You being sad and anxious and unmotivated.

I’m learning every day to delight in small successes and it feels so much better than beating myself up about small failures. Because at the end of the day it is both the successes and the failures that make us who we are, so why not focus on the positive parts of you rather than the negative?


Melody Monday

I’m going to try this thing where I make thrice weekly posts, but I’m notoriously bad at keeping a schedule. Mondays I’m going to talk about music because I’m a bit of a music snob and I’d love to share what I’ve been listening to lately!

Hope you are all having a good Monday, if not, maybe these sweet tunes will help!

Number One

I Spend Too Much Time in my Room by The Band CAMINO


This is my actual favorite song of 2018 so far, because it summarizes me as a person. I basically put it on once and then end up repeating it a dozen times.

Number Two

Moving by I Eat Plants for a Living


This song basically is just my catch-all for a whole genre of music I’ve been listening to non-stop which is just all of those lo-fi hip-hop beats radios/youtube streams. I put this on and study or zone out or what have you. It helps me relax and focus, which is good because I’m typically just a stressed-out person in general.

Number Three

Does Your Heart Break by The Brilliance


Wow. This song is just stunning it makes me happy and sad at the same time and it’s so powerful. It’s part of a playlist I made on Spotify of uplifting Christian music.

Number Four

I Can’t Decide by the Scissor Sisters


This one’s a bit old and I haven’t listened to it as much this week, but it’s so upbeat and fun. Plus it’s really great to sing along with once you know all of the words. Basically, just a certified Bop™.

Enjoy and leave a comment if you liked any of them!

The Only Way Out is Through


Being an adult means doing things you don’t want to do.

That’s been a hard truth to come to terms with. Especially when doing things you don’t want to do means tackling your fears head on, which is something I’ve had to do weekly this semester.

And I know logically that I’m not actually climbing Mount Everest and that I almost definitely will survive the year. But having anxiety makes it very very hard to think logically.

The only way out is through.

I saw that phrase on a friend’s instagram post and surprisingly it’s given me a lot of comfort this year. It’s true. I have to do something I don’t want to do, but it’s an ends to a means, a way out. It’s a necessary obstacle before I am free and not limited by the bounds of my major and classes, but I can truly explore things I’m actually passionate about.

So, do the thing. Even if you really really don’t want to.

Even if you’d give anything to not have to do it.

Because on the other side you’ll be a stronger, wiser, better person and you can explore the realms of creativity and do whatever you heart desires.


On: Technology and Unhappiness

I recently read an article that said, “Teens who spend less time in front of screens are happier — up to a point, new research shows” Which got me thinking. Sure, that jibes, in fact I would almost come to expect it. Some of my happiest moments are definitely not tied to my phone. For example, Christmas morning, I definitely am not on my phone. Hiking with my family in Acadia National Park, I only used my phone to capture photos. But times when I am glued to my phone? When I’m anxious, when I’m feeling introverted, when I’m bored, when I’m feeling particularly avoidant. (Now I’m not saying that’s the only time I use my phone, but bear with me here.)
Last night, I was feeling very anxious. I’m taking a class that stresses me out a lot because it really puts me out of my comfort zone. And when I’m feeling anxious I go on my phone to distract myself. I watch funny videos on YouTube, I scroll mindlessly through Tumblr reading funny memes or looking at gifsets of whatever fandom I’m interested in at the moment. It helps me feel better.
The article stated: “It also found that adolescents’ psychological well-being decreased the more hours a week they spent on screens, including the Internet, social media, texting, gaming, and video chats. The findings jibe with earlier studies linking frequent screen use and teenage depression and anxiety.”
Now my question is, this link here, is it perhaps reversed? Are teens who are already anxious and depressed on their phones more, or are phones themselves making the teens anxious and depressed? Because like I said before my phone and computer are frequently a way for me to escape, to avoid whatever is causing me distress. (Yes I know this is an unhealthy avoidance tactic and I would be better off exercising or meditating, I took Abnormal Psych, I know.) BUT, I’m just putting it out there, that when you read these articles, see these headlines, and immediately jump into the “AHH! Technology is bad! I need to throw away my phone and escape into the alps.” Maybe, it’s not the technology, but you.
I’ve been thinking about my dependence on my phone for an escape a lot lately, and while I know I can’t quit cold turkey, I do want to endeavor to rely less on my phone to distract me and try a more healthy alternative.
Food for thought.

Twenty Eighteen


Today is my birthday! It’s also the start to the New Year. One of my New Year’s resolutions was to be more consistent with updating this blog. And before you roll your eyes at another New Year resolution that will probably go unresolved know that I have a little bit more motivation than it just being a new year. It’s also my last year as a college student.
​This new year is going to hold a lot of new experiences and challenges for me. And at the end of it I’ll be a college graduate.  So here’s me making a conscious effort to document that year. Happy Birthday to 2018! (and to me!)


I was sitting at my desk, procrastinating, and scrolling through my phone looking at the hundreds of photos all of my friends have been posting on Instagram. Nearly every single one of my friends or acquaintances are currently travelling or studying abroad. As much as I’d love to currently be in Russia, or Paris, or Amsterdam right now, it occurred to me that I really shouldn’t be feeling sorry for myself. I’m working hard in Gainesville studying and hopefully I will be able to graduate a semester early because of it.
You may also be feeling un-content (is that a word?) with where you are in your life right now. Days could seem monotonous or boring, but if you work hard now your work will pay off.
Sure I’m stuck in hot, swampy, Gainesville taking math, public speaking, and economics currently. But there will be plenty of time for me to travel and see the world. And I know my time to experience all the world has to offer will come. But for now I should count my blessings, be happy for my friends who are travelling, and work hard where I am, because I am infinitely blessed to be where I am and to have the opportunities that I do.

End of Semester

Well, I’ve almost made it. The hardest semester — hardest year really — of my life is finally coming to a close. In some ways it feels like it’s taken forever to get to this point, but in other ways it feels like it went by so fast.

This semester has been incredibly challenging for me. As it comes to an end though I can’t help but feel grateful, not just that it is ending, but that I have learned so much.

Not only have a learned a lot academically, but I’ve also grown as a person. I feel as though I am different from how I was at the beginning of the year. This school year has forced me to face so many of my fears and honestly, learn more about what exactly it is that I am afraid of. (But that’s a story for another blog post.)

Of course, I have some regrets, but overall, I am incredibly proud of how much I have accomplished this year. I will still be in Gainesville finishing up those pesky gen-ed requirements, but then this fall I will be taking classes that I am truly excited for.

I’ve also discovered new passions, such as my passion for creating and editing YouTube video which honestly, came out of nowhere, but I adore doing now. And of course, I’ve continued with my life-long love of writing and story-telling.

This year has been hard, yes, but it’s been a learning experience and for that I feel blessed.

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I’m currently taking a class called Personal Branding and it centers around the idea of cultivating the “brand” that you, as a professional, want to present to the world.

According to Wikipedia, Personal branding is essentially the ongoing process of establishing a prescribed image or impression in the mind of others about an individual, group, or organization.

For me, I’m working on “my brand.” I’m working on figuring out who I am, who I want to be and where I want to go. College can be simultaneously frustrating and inspiring because you are surrounded by so many young people doing amazing things, internships, research, projects, all thing that you would love to do too, but aren’t.

I constantly struggle with what I want to do. The kind of person I want to be. The career I want to have, the “brand” I want to present to the world. It isn’t easy to figure all of that out. I’m envious of the people who appear to have figured it all out.

I understand that I am young and I have plenty of time to figure it out. But I also am a very ambitious person so I look to the future a lot. I look to the time when I have it figured out. I don’t want to rush my time here at college, but occasionally I really find myself longing for the day that I have a cute apartment in a city I love with a job that I am passionate about.

​For now, I’m working on it.